New medication

Finally the doctor’s statement for my disabled parking permit arrived. So, this means I have to have my picture taken, which is something I dislike especially now when I have gained a lot of weight thanks to the now changed medication. Today I started with my new meds, and immediately lost my appetite. I feel nauseous all the time, and preparing food for my family was quite an ordeal.

Fortunately due to my long experience with cooking, today the food comes almost by itself so that I don’t have to stand beside the pots and pans for more than seconds at a time. Seems like we’re back to the same situation I was in last summer, when I didn’t eat anything for days. It simply was too much to ask of me to get something down my throat.

Otherwise things are nearly back to normal. My son was home for many days, he had caught a really nasty flue. The cut in my left hand is healing nicely, so I am able to write and knit again. We built, or rather assembled, a closet yesterday for the girls’ room, there is still another closet waiting for us to assemble, maybe today or tomorrow we’ll have the energy to do so.

Last night we watched the film Australia with Nicole Kidman ja Hugh Jackman. It brought tears to my eyes, especially when Nullah was taken to the boat and the look in the both of their eyes. I cried watching Sex and the City-movie as well. It was so heart breaking to watch Carrie hit Mr.Big with the flowers and Charlotte pulling her away. Charlotte’s eyes were so filled with pain that I just could not hold back the tears. But I think it is possible that movies touch you in that way. It shows that you still have big emotions after these negative happenings.

There is still as much snow as there was last week. Even today I have a longing for a trip abroad. This weekend I had nothing to do besides chores and it made me lose my nerves. I wanted to go somewhere, meet someone or just do something else than clean the house or do the laundry. Instead we went upstairs to our dungeon and turned on the Playstation and played PopIdol and won. It wasn’t that hard, maybe because I had set the level as Easy. Looks like it is too Easy, so next time I have to increase the difficulty level. It’s fun more than anything, good music and nice clothes.

After a couple of nights sleeping badly, I feel quite tired. Last night I was awake from 4 Am until 7 Am, and then finally was able to get a couple of hours of sleep again. I thought of getting up and folding the laundry, but it was too cold to do that, so I lay in bed listening to our cats’ noise inside and some weird noise outside, so distinct that even our dogs started barking.

The sun is not shining today outside, inside it is.